the number 16 to most people woul carry not much of a meaning, but to me and my dear, it means that we have been in a long distance relationship for 4 months. its not exacly easy to maintain a long distance relationship, unless there's lots of understanding and acceptance. Whatsmore, if you know you have a pretty girlfriend that guys would want to get to know, thats even worse.. haha..

Being with you for the best of 16 months has thought me that there will always be change in time, some for better, some for worst, and in some situations easy to accept, others more diffucult. but well, being with her was like the best thing i ever did. true, there were ups and downs but then every moment with her was fun. we did so many 'things' together, went many places, and most importantly just spent so much time together. because of this, being apart felt so difficult because there just wasn't the other person anymore

no matter what happens, the thing that bonds us together was friendship. I remember the day i told you that no matter wha we shall remain each others best friend. that is why no matter how angry i am with things you do i shall always hear you out and not try to hurt you.

so darling.. if you are reading this.. i don't wanna say very much, because between you and me, I know you love me very much and you know i do too... so, no matter how far we are, or how long we are apart, our thoughts will always be with each other, and NOT LET ANYBODY bring us apart..

On this day, i renew my love for you!!!!

love,
it is but a word,
it is but a voice,
but action
and touch

like warmth is in winter,
like a nest to a bird,
like food is to a hungry man,
thats how deep my love goes

never to fade with night,
never to dwindle in sunlight,
never to wave in twilight,
tis, my true gift to thee

dis is jessie, alvin's gf here, guest blogging. neh sound more like spaming his page.

alvin's so bz lately. therefore, no updates for every1 to see, so i just decided to add something for fun.

exactly 1 week from now, it's your 21st birthday. I know ure excited about it. Of coz i have something planned, we'll just wait for da day to come.

Ciao

 

ok.... its been a long time since I last blogged... Y?? u might ask??? its because I have been dead busy, lots and lots of things to do. SO basically I will try to blog about what has happened in the past few months in this blog, and hopefully the next I shall blog about me in the temple

ok... firstly, I had my exams in july. so basically if there were exams, of course damn bz right?? so yeah, was studying like mad for that, somehow, I dunno why,I still didn't do that well. It was the 1st time I had to sit for an OSCE exam, or clinical exam. Wasn't as difficult as I thought it was, but its quite traumatizing to hav an examiner inside that screws u upside down. SO yeah, managed to actually do not too bad, unfortunately, my other papers were not so good, so I had to resit. and that suck. Seriously, its stressfull, and tramatizing. imagine, you know that you do not hav the backup of summative assessments, and at the same time, no chance of resitting the paper again, its 1 sem repeat. so yeah, had no choice but to try and get it right this time. STudied like mad, and if luck would have it, I was dead sick 1 week b4 exam, major ofllicular tonsilitis that ic ouldn't even drink or eat. Its just so pain that tears actually came to my eyes each time I opened my mouth. so basically tat week was dead. We had 5 weeks to study up. And the paper was much harder then the original paper coz we were supposed to hav studied.So well, I just sat for the exam, and waited for the results.

On results day, was damn panic, it was the 1st time that I had to resit, and everybody was damn surprised I had to resit. Together with me were many mature or graduate students that had to resit also, there were many surprised failures. apparentlt 1/2 of the whole batch failed the end of sem exam, but only ab 40 of us really failed coz the rest had their summatives to pull them up. so well, this time, I passed, I tell u, my gf opened my letter and cried wif joy. Thank goodness I passed. But 12 other did not. One of them was my friend, Richard. Damn sad for him. Didn't make it through. It has to repeat. And he is 26, a graduate in microbio. SO well, wish him luck, and we promised to be wif him always

ok... apart from that, lemme see, something interesting happened, I guess most of you guys know about it. ok... I got myself a gf.. most of you all know her redi by now I guess, CHing yee. You see, me and her go back abt 3 years ago. Used to like her then, but then she had a bf. then when she broke up, she liked this other guy, who well, dn't really bother much about her and was kinda more bz playing games and all then to actually bother bout her, and also coz of religion probs, she felt abit odd when his relatives and all ask her 2 convert, which I personally feel them rather stupid. dunno why all those ppl are lidat. and then, basically also her parents didn't like him or the 1st bf, coz well, dunno, personality, the way they carried themselved or something. So well, she broke up, but I never intended to do anything, but as time passed, I realised that I better do something, from experience, you dun wanna loose anything. SO yeah, basically, I did tell her in PD, over sunset, but she didn't agree. until few weeks later over the phone only she agreed, after some stuff that happened. SO somehow, her parents kinda agreed to us, they seem to be ok wif me, wif according to her is new. good for me. SO yeah. we got closer and all until today la. she is kinda like the 1st gf i have that I actually felt it would last and really feel very close and can relate to. So yeah. lets just hope we last time time. Wish I really think we will... SO well, now back to the old story. her ex and I were friends, and he thinks I betrayed him and all. But yeah. Lets put it this way, it was her choice. and they're done. So basically yeah. I just dun fee guilty. and the most part was he wasn't like treating her fantastically and all, most importantly, he wasn't the epitome of a bf she imagined. So pal, basically no hard feelings, I never spannered, I never did any dirty work, we only got 2gether few months later. in life we just hav to live wif changes and never hang on too long, that will only make matters worst

so basically. thats the end, next blog up soon

The Last Phot we had with Chief Reverend

Yesterday was the funeral service of one of Malaysia's most respected and honoured human beings since 50 years ago. After giving his life to the service of humanity, The Chief Reverend Ven Dr K Sri Dhammananda Maha Thero, Chief High Priest of Malaysia and SIngapore,  passed away at 12.43pm on 31st August 2006 at Subang Jaya Medical Centre.

Its very sad to know that somebody so influencial and powerful in a humble and rightoues way has passed away, leaving us with only his written words and recorded voice. I had the opportunity to take a photo with the chief when I visited the Maha Vihara in Brickfields just few months back. Though he needed help getting around, he seemed so cheerful and willing to take a photo with us. Last year, I had the opportunity to ask chief a few questions when I attended a youth function to commemorate his 50th Year of Dhammaduta service in Malaysia.

How respected this man was, was clearly shown when thousands and thousands of people from not only Kuala Lumpur and Selangor, not only Malaysia, not only Asia but thw whole world, from as far as America and UK were here to pay their last respects to him. I was touched to hear that several muslims, especially from Kelantan, travelled all the way down to attend his funeral. Imagine the magnitude of his funeral that the whole of Kuala lumpur from brickfields to Semenyih was jamned up due to the amount of people trying to follow the procession to bed farewell to the Chief. There were 30 buses from BMV and another 20 from the different buddhist organizations, some from as far as SIngapore,and 200 over cars that followed. ALl the busses were packed, so were the cars. You do the math, and you will realise that there were more than 2000 people attending the funeral. This included the Prime Minister of Sri Langka and other digniteries, Malaysian MPs, even the Deputy Speaker of Parliment, Ministers, Deputy Ministers, Politicians, ETC. You could clearly see many many cars with emblems outside the temple. This was the easily the largest funeral service Malaysia had in a long time. Even the King's Funeral lost to it, because people respected the king but never really knew who he way. This humble man was different, we knew who he was, we learnt from him, and he knew who we were. That is why we were all willing to travel the distance to bid chief farewell

The Funeral ceremony itself was held in great tradition and customs, Most importantly, it was held in true Buddhist ways, with speakers giving inspiration to all of us. Many talks and evens touched my heart, many things that were said actually got people to think. I guess people who knew him personally or not were movedby wat people said about chief's life.

The world has lost a great master, an honorable teacher, but most importantly, a man who has dedicated his life for the service of others. May he be reborn in a better plain, and may all his merits and virtous be condusive to his attainment of nibanna. Good bye sir, you shall not only be remembered by your face, but by your teachings, and the way you led your life....

Adhuvam jivitam,
dhuvam maranam,
avassam maya maritabbam,
maranapariyosanam me jivitam.
Jivitam me aniyatam,
maranam me niyatam.

Living is impermanent
death is permanent,
surely we shall die,
my life has death as the end
My living is not permanent,
my death is for certain.

Idam me natinam Hotu,Sukita Hontu Natayo,
Imam no punnam bhaggam, sabba sattanam dema,
Sabbe Satta Sukita Hontu

Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu!

THe story below was taken from valerie's multiply... haha... val, val... good timing for such a post.. I found it very interesting... and quite true... for ppl that have experienced it then lets just say I think you know it very well...

 

"I once had a friend who grew to be very close to me.

Once when we were sitting at the edge of a swimming pool, she filled the palm of her hand with some water and held it before me, and said this:

"You see this water carefully contained on my hand? It Symbolizes Love."

This was how I saw it:
As long as you keep your hand caringly open and allow it to remain there, it will always be there. However, if you attempt to close your fingers round it and try to posses it, it will spill through the first cracks it finds.

This is the greatest mistake that people do when they meet love...they try to possess it, they demand, they expect... and just like the water spilling out of your hand, love will retrieve from you. For love is meant to be free, you cannot change its nature. If there are people you love, allow them to be free beings.

Give and don't expect.
Advise, but don't order.
Ask, but never demand.

It might sound simple, but it is a lesson that may take a lifetime to truly practice. It is the secret to true love.
To truly practice it, you must sincerely feel no expectations from those who you love, and yet an unconditional caring."

 

very true story.... i for one encountered this... and realised that once the water has sipped through your fingers back into the pool... you will never be able to get back the same water which you once had in your palms... though there will always be droplets of the water that you once held... sigh.... if only there was a way of finding it back....

good story though....

 

tanx to val for given a "silence is consent" approval to me to use this post...

 

you see... life is not made up of big things, but many small things.... and when u accumulate them, u realise that they are more than a single big thing.... I realised that nothing is permanent... May it be friendship, may it be feelings, may it be emotions.... but the thing that most of us fail to realise that change is inevitable... one day someone mught say something, something different the next.. and yet another thing the enxt moment... all due to different realisations of the same scenario and situations... finally, we ourselves have to realise that we change too... one moment we are brooding over something, the next moment we come to realise a different perspective of the same thing....

you see... sometimes we thinke are so very into somebody that you just wanna be with that person... etc..etc... etc... but when you actually look into yourself and what have been going on around... your own perspective of the situation changes... there's a reason why you care for someone.... but because you care for someone... doesn't mean you really do like that person and all... but just that you felt that person has done something for you... at that stage... maybe this care is mistaken for like and it turns into attachment...

Sometimes, someone appear in your life all of a sudden without you expecting it, and you have so much fun and all together that lets just say you ask for more... you start to feel that this person is special in the sense that you cna do stuff 2gether and all... and this is mistaken for being in love... the truth is that love cannot start in a short time, but develops over time.... its just that you care for that person because maybe her entrance into your life change the way you see things, maybe left an impact in your life... this can be a reasn why you would care so much for somebody and maybe like to be with that person... but when that feeling is confused for like then attachment comes in.... only when the attachment is removed through sudden change do we really see the nature of things....

its seldom that such ppl appear in your life.... but when they do, most of us view things differently... only after a change has happened, do we realise that the care we actually want to give, is like a bro to a sis...most importantly, we see that the kind of relationship that went on is one that can never develop into anything else...

The care in this way means that it would not change through time, whether or not she or you become attached to anybody, or how far apart they are from you or what they did to you... I personally have only met two people that somehow, no matter what happens you would still care for them.... the first started from a scenario called "I love you enough to let you go"... tough thing to do but after awhile, you realise that its much better the way we r now, where there is care for each other no matter what things changes, and no one gets hurt... the reason why I can say such a thing??? because she was the only person that is willing to risk being shouted at to come and talk to me when I was burning with anger.... the second being barely 2 months ago... she changed the way my life was, added more spice and life into it, and basically reminded me that there's many many many more things to look forward to in life, and I found a friend in her that was different from d other people i met... basically d 3 weeks i knew her, she left a very strong impact in my life... stronger than that, she brought out sponteinity back in my life, and basically assured me that there's always more to life than meets the eye... its a nice feeling to know that, and can easily.. easily be confused for like, etc etc... but the truth is that, its just care for the person that actually gave you so much, maybe without even realising it... and when you do care for such a person... it becomes more than that of a couple, etc... its a scenario where you will still care no matter she has a bf or you have a gf, no matter how she decided to hurt or ignore you later or whether or not you talk so often or see each other so often and whether or not it is returned and appreciated, because to you, the impact she left you is more than enough... this is what we call as care and love that is given from a bro to a sis..... and these feelings are often confused as infatuation and like, which happened to me... and I lost a friend... but well... the most important thing is that to you, she should never loose the friend that she actually left an impact with.... To maybe a few people that are sceptical, this is the reason why a boy an a girl can be just best friends and might/will be nothing more....

sorry.... no poem 2nite.... had 3 hours sleep for 2 nights... might brain not working... heart not beating..... good night ppl... take care....

 

 

How long does it take to fall in love??? a single day

How long does it take to care??? a single day

How long does it take for things to change??? a single day

How long does it take to be hurt??? a single hour

How long does it take to forgive??? a single second

How long does it take to forget??? a single day, or forever???

 

ever entered a room and immediately somebody caught your attention??? and then found out that she's gonna be in the same group as u??? but then the moment your friend sees her he goes "this gurl nice to see only, cannot go after wan... not for any of us"...

you see... love at 1st sight somehow or rather might involve both parties.. I dunno... sometimes it does sometimes it doesn't. but when you set eyes on a person the moment you saw her... then you know that maybe you have fallen into it.. And sometimes, thats only even at 1st glance... and then later on when you talk to her you realise that conversations do come easily too... that means that you can communicate with her as well... I have never been a person to believe in all this, until february 23rd.... but again... Is this love at 1st sight, or stupidity in an instance

you see... we seem 2 share alot in common... and the instant i met her.. i somehow just wanted to know more abt her... get to know her better and make friends with her... basically, our friendship kinda grew very fast, and before 1 week was up, we were kinda exchanging secrets. offered to accompany each other and all... comforting each other in times of probs and stuff lidat..... went out wif her d whole day on sat...

i dunno y.,. but its been a very long time since i had so much fun, ever did anything crazy spontaneously and all... last sat, we both skipped telematch... i fetched her at 10am from imu, went midvalley, had breakfast, watched a movie, haha.. 1st time had ice cream in baskin robbins, and know what, i was damn messy... then went ard looking at digicam and webcam... then came back to imu tried searching for my bag but failed... then we didn't know what to do, on impulse, i told her we take an lrt to bukit bintang... so we did... then walked ard bukit bintang... went sungei wang... just walked ard and all la... haha.. n getting lost.. thats the whole fun abt it... then we came back only to find that nobody's going for bbq night, and the whole orientation group was in klcc... we decided not to join them... so we went for an aimless drive, just driving ard kl.... since she likes to see lightings, i decided to just drive ard the city... talked crap and all.. then headed to subang windmill for dinner... went back imu, nobody's back yet, so we drove to the top of a hill and just sat by the edge looking at the cars passing by... haha... finally everyone came back.. went up to get my stuff and drove her home.. abt 2am in d morning....

d next day, d juniors had a gathering for us to thank us for helping them, d so called fascilitators i mean, n my friends, d other seniors pulled me aside... they disagreed with me hanging out too much with her... some said i neglected my studies, some said i neglected my friends... but i admit i did... its true... but the next part probably hurts... they just told me that she was using me... and just making use of me as a source of entertainment when she has nothing to do... ouch!!! that hurt... they deduced that if another guy gives her enough attention she'll probably even forget alvin lum existed... coz she only needed attention... it hurts... after a long lecture on that, about how i'm wasting my time... the key word was that they have reservations... they kept on pushing that nothing's gonna work out coz of the look she has... and that i'm being too innocent... it hurts... but what hit me the the hardest was "you will never be good enough for her no matter how you try... if some good looking guy comes along with some sweet words, she will not even talk to you anymore"

you see... the take home message basically hit me hard... its true... i basically have nothing... no looks, no built, no cash... all i have to give is my love, my care, my heart, my words, my sincerity and well, just all me... i don't know sweet words to flirt or sweet talk, i don't have huge sums of money to throw, i don't have a brat pitt appearance.... the truth is tough to accept but well i guess the song "god must have spent a little more time on you explains that"... not that i'm complaining.... but i trust her.... n when jessie asked me today, what if she actually made use of you and dissapears when some sweet talking brad pitt who drives a mercedes comes along, would i have minded??? the truth, i'll give all i can give to the person i like... if that's not enough, i'm sorry... i tried my best... n no... i will not get mad... i'll not hate her, lts just say i might end up not minding it... but yes.. it will hurt... the truth is that i do trust her... n i guess i shall continue to...

at the end of the day.. whether or not this relationship works out.. thats a question that time can answer... but 1 thing i know for sure... friendship does not need working out or a proposal.. it just happens... and well.. i guess it has.. i'm never a person that likes to make a fuss of all this issues... but somehow... i like to believe that somehow, somewhere along the line, i have hope.... and maybe.. hopefully, i wun get hurt again.... but yet again.... doesn't getting hurt make you a better person???? at least you learn to fall for the right person at least.. haha...

anway... thats basically what happened in 1 week...

i'm just a simple man
sitting with you,
looking at you
with words as my only gift

I'm just a simple man,
with no stuff to strut,
with no words of magic,
just my confidence to yonder

I'm just a simple man,
wanting to hold you tight,
wanting to hold you close,
just to say I care

I'm just a simple man,
That risks my only penny,
that gives my only dollar,
tou know you are fine

I'm just a simple man,
with no pots of gold,
with no chest of silver,
only my heart, coated in bronze

I'm just a simple man,
bearing no wonderful gifts,
showing no wonderful voices,
just my love i give true

I'm just a simple man,
hoping none of you,
wishing none of you,
but your smile and laughter

I'm just a simple man,
with no elaborate feast prepared,
but my words over dinner,
to ease you when in pain

Im just a simple man,
with nothing to give,
with nothing to show,
accept my all

 

haha... wrote this while' i'm really sleepy... anyway... to me, the most important thing is actually feelings in a relationship... no matter what others say or think... you yourself play the most important role... n only you can decide if you wanna be with that person and if you can rfeally trust that person... no decision is right or wrong... only the decision that you should make...

Went to kuala kubu bharu for 7 days as part of my hospital rotations... had well, an interesting time there.. There were times that were good and some not so good.. but overall it was a very very good experience.... This is what happened

19th Jan 2006

We left IMU at about 4.30pm ... The journey was good... spent most of it just resting in the bus and listening to radio.... When we got there, we had a briefing on KKB and d housing there where we had to stay... The house was not too bad but we really had to clean up the place... Before that, I had to go help the girls fix their lightbulb in one of the houses because it fused

SO basically we cleaned the whole house and disinfected it and sprayed it with mosquito spray... Then we drove out for dinner in KKB town... couldn't find d shop we were told to go.. so ended up in a mamak stall instead tat was not so cheap... Then we went back and washed up and tried hooking up all the laptops together to play command and conquer due to the lack of starcraft and frozen throne wif us.. Somehow it wasn't so successfull so we decided to play on our own... yi ling, ju an and wendy came over at abt 11 and jst hang over at our place.. haha.. taught wendy how to play C&C and shed ended up so eager to destroy ppl..... n yes.. she won d campaign.... Sent them back to their house few doors away at abt 2 before we finally wnet to sleep....

20th Jan 2006

Our day started at abt 6am in the morning... We basically had to take turns using d toilet... me, thomas and kenneth shared one.. David, Julian, Anwar and Richard shared another... Breakfast was maggi mee and milo... haha... Then we headed to KKB hospital by bus... we reached at 8am and we were supposed to have a briefing at 9am.. so i just walked around while d others had breakfast

Our briefing was about wat we had to do.. Basically we have to clerk (take a full history or interview) 1 patient a day and present it to the ward doctor later... We are free to observe and check out whatever we want at our own initiative but the clerking must be done for presentation at the specific time that we have to meet our clinical tutors... Well.. I can't tell u  much about my patient due to patient - doctor confidentiality laws that  must abide by, but  i guess its safe to say she reminds me so much of my grandmother... the way she talks and all... well... I miss my grandma

So basically after lunch, we went on to meet our tutor... she basically ask my friend to present his patient that wasn't very cooperative... and basically he got screwed by her n the patient... She blasted us with all kinds of questions.. most of which we can't really answer... But overall we learnt alot...

After that, before going back, we stopped by the mortuary and was told that a forensics expert was coming from KL hospital to perform a post mortem.. SO 5 of us stayed back for 3 hours to wait for him to come... I was very very scared... my 1st time seeing a dead body in a mortuary... Seeing my grandparents in the coffin was a totally different experience... And even that I was scared.. But I overcame that thanks to my friends... So I suited up in the mortuary gown and went in... young lady that went for an abortion last week... SHe died all of a sudden in the morning.,.. SO basically the doc cut her up... removed d brains.. organs and everything... sliced it up and check... took samples.. then threw everything back inside d body.... the diagnosis... death due to ischaemic heart disease secondary to coronary arterial atherosclerosis.... It was 3 hours before we left the hospital at abt 8.30pm... we got lost and ended up walking for many many hours before finding our way back home 1 hour 45 mins later... on foot... in the dark... after watching my 1st post mortem... slept very well that night, apart from my friend hitting me because he couldn't sleep...

21st January 2006

SATURDAY... HAHA... no need to go to hospital... so we walked down from our house... 20 mins walk to town for lunch... then we played some cyber games in town.. walked for about 3-4 hours... then bought dinner n came back.... That night we ate in our house and played cards n studied abit and some command and conquer.... because apart from d few gurls in the nurses hostel, the only ppl left in KKB were 6 of us in the house... haha.... quite boring... but well.. we slept late again due to command and conquer and chor tai ti... haha

22nd January 2006

Hmm.... We got up at 1pm... haha... so basically we had lunch of biscuits, mandarin oranges, maggi mee and bread with chocolate spread...Then we played cards and studied... yes.. at the same time... and tried practicing physical examination on each other.... Then julian came back.... and I was hopping SOMEONE would be back as well... from some other house... haha.... so can call her over.... haha... but no... she only came back later tat nite... so we decided to go jungle tracking... yes.... trekking to a nearby waterfall near our house... and we did... 5 of us.. minus julian who was too 'TIRED"... we walked there.. took about 30 mins... n it was worth it... nice water.... it was dark already so we decided against goin any deeper into the forest.... we came back and went out for dinner... then proceded to study again.... until 4am where we slept and got up at 6am

23rd January 2006

Woke up feeling weird.... but anyway... still went ahead and got to hospital..... walked around and went to set up the projector for the presentation by th dierector of the hospital... man.... he can't speak english well... and he's a medical doctor.... anyway.... well.... we told our lecturer that we we watched a PM... and she said that we were the 1st batch of IMU students that managed to see a full PM.... praised us abit for enthusiasm... So well.. it was off to ward rounds again... clerking patients... then went to emergency.. nothing interesting... except for weird cases that i can't post due to patient confidentiality.. like ppl poking stuff into their u know where.... n then we waited for a delivery that wasn't about to take place... haha

After lunch... again we met our clinical tutors....  My patient that I clerked was a very nice man and I even had a chat with him about his daughter that wanted to do medicine.... gave him some advice and all... but too bad I never presented as well because he was discharged later that day.... However, I heard a cardiac murmur for the 1st time... cool... it sounded very haunting... the sound....

SO after that.. we stayed back again to check on the pregnant mother and decided to wait for her to give birth.... while waiting.. we did an ECG on the patient with heart problems.... The 1st time we did an ECG on real patients.. haha... it was cool and the patient was really very very helpful... Then we decided to walk about while wating for the delivery to happen.... then another group of friends came at about 10pm.. the bets part.. they came in shorts and lab coat to watch the delivery... we were still formally dressed because we never went back.... I went out and talked with the father.... he's 1 year older than me... second child... and he's also a top student.... very matured boy... got me thinking about how much I play and how immature I am, reardless of education... he's already walking and thinking of his kids and future and his wife and all.... and i'm still playing around....

Then,a life just had to be released into the world... I saw a baby being delivered.... very disgusting and painful.. mother thrashing about...They snipped the uterus and vagina without any anaesthetic.... damn painful.... But alas the baby boy was brought into this world.... I accompanied the father in... and I saw the parents emotions flowing around.... Its weird that the sanctity of life involves the suffering of another... that love is all about suffering and more suffering... love in any and every sense...

So well.. after that, we walked back and played some cards at home before sleeping

24th January 2006

ok.. got up feeling nausious.... insufficient sleep.... BUt i still had to get up..... so as usual.. the routine continued... I was told at the hospital that there's a body.... but this time... its a murder case.... she was found in th forest.... body believed to be 1 month old because its infested with maggots and stinks... But anyway.. The mortuary was still closed.... so e went for our briefing and later all of us took turns to go into the mortuary to look at the body.... it was totally rotten and decayed... left borns and pieces of flesh and skin hanging here and there... water was seeping out and maggots were everywhere.. jumping around... The smell was terrible... sour, salty, bitter.. all it once... terrible.... so i came out after observing for a few minutes... no amount of cloth can block the smell..

so well... we then proceded to clerk patient for the day... My patient this time was a young man that had so many problems that I was wondering if he actually is that young... Then when I came out of the ward... god... the smell hit me again.... the smell from the mortuary floated to the wards as well... terrible... make me feel like throwing up... but basically i had to eat something.. so i just had buns... went to talk to the patient i clerked on fri... had a chat wif her... n me n wendy went to buy her milo.. though I din think that was such good idea.... coz she's a diabetic...

Anyway.... After that, we presented our case findings to our tutor then went home... played cards awhile... then it rained... we had to walk out in the rain for dinner because our friend that drove must decide that he doesn't wanna go out.... so well... we walked out... and i din eat much coz stomachache.... so well... we walked back again after playing cyber games awhile... went back and played cards awhile... but my stomach felt very bad.. so my friends took me to emergency department of KKB hospital at 3am in the morning... the Medical assistant didn't even check me... said wanted to gimme injection to stop the pain.. I protested and was given oral medication instead... no anti vomiting oso...but luckily wasn't charged because I was a medical student.. everything free.... went abck n slept

25th January 2006

Woke up at 6am again.. but this time we went to klinik kesihatan ulu yam bharu... the MA incharge there was cool... he told us to check the patients n diagnose them and he will prescribe... knowing we are only second year students.... haha... but well.. i did diagnose them... and alotof them thought we r doctors... haha... then we almost ahd to do suturing for a patient until we manage to convince the MA that we have had no idea how to do suturing... haha...but well... it was a good experience... then we proceeded to the pharmacy where we dispensed drugs to patients.. haha... doctors writting... I pity the pharmacists.... but well.. thats their jpb.. So we did dilution and gave out medication to patients as though we were pro lidat... but got a few mistakes la tat d pharmacists had to correct us... Then just before we left.. we saw a boy that said tat he has gastric and breathlessness and can see things... imagine... haha.. but well. we left after that...

We dropped by KKB hospital again... in time to observe the post mortem of the rotten corpse.. the smell was terrible... we all took turns going in and all... but the smell was killing.. our clothes all had the smell... we saw maggots jumping and all... the floor was fulll wif maggots n roaches n small bones flakes from the body.... I accidentally step on 2 teeth.... but well.. it was a very good experience.... After that.. we walked around abit.. took a rest in the briefing room... then the forensic specialist gave us a lecture on carrying out post mortems... then we headed back...

That evening... a few of us went to the waterfall again... this time we went deeper into the forest.. into the higher waterfall.. it was damn nice... very cooling... I was there with boon jein, yi ling, wendy, david, kenneth hiew, wei meng, khai wei... the place was cool... boon jein and I wanted to go in deeper into the jungle ut the otehrs dare not so we didn't... It was a hill... so the air was cool n nice... I actually wnet there for "some" reasons... didn't quite work out.. but well... enjoyed it still...

WHen we got back.. I realised that my house was empty.. eevry1 went to the hot water spring... so I walked 45 minutes there alone... haha.. got there... played awhile.. Then walked back for dinner... then walked back home... played around abit.. then slept...

27th January 2006 

Our last day in KKB.... hmm.... well.... we went to Klinik Kesihatan Serendah.. very far away.... n because of that we slept in the bus... got very lethargic when we reached... crap.... but well.. everyone was in pairs but I decided to try to be alone... wasn't too bad.. interveiwed a patient there... observed a few procedures.... ultrasound and all.... observed a few things... then went for our briefing session.... we were briefed on family medicine by a family medicine specialist... then we presented a case... DId some discussions... few ppl were sleeping then.. namely san fui and wendy... haha... wonder what they did the nite before... haha.... but anyway... after that we went out.. took a few photos then went back...

The momentg we reached back.. we rushed to pack our stuff because Thomas was in a hurry to go back to penang by 7.30 bus and it was already 5pm.... SO at 5.15pm... we left KKB.... That was the end of our interesting 7 days trip.... hmmm... very interesting, adventurous and well... somewhat emotional.... for pictures... visit alvinlum.multiply.com... photos coming soon....