you see... life is not made up of big things, but many small things.... and when u accumulate them, u realise that they are more than a single big thing.... I realised that nothing is permanent... May it be friendship, may it be feelings, may it be emotions.... but the thing that most of us fail to realise that change is inevitable... one day someone mught say something, something different the next.. and yet another thing the enxt moment... all due to different realisations of the same scenario and situations... finally, we ourselves have to realise that we change too... one moment we are brooding over something, the next moment we come to realise a different perspective of the same thing....

you see... sometimes we thinke are so very into somebody that you just wanna be with that person... etc..etc... etc... but when you actually look into yourself and what have been going on around... your own perspective of the situation changes... there's a reason why you care for someone.... but because you care for someone... doesn't mean you really do like that person and all... but just that you felt that person has done something for you... at that stage... maybe this care is mistaken for like and it turns into attachment...

Sometimes, someone appear in your life all of a sudden without you expecting it, and you have so much fun and all together that lets just say you ask for more... you start to feel that this person is special in the sense that you cna do stuff 2gether and all... and this is mistaken for being in love... the truth is that love cannot start in a short time, but develops over time.... its just that you care for that person because maybe her entrance into your life change the way you see things, maybe left an impact in your life... this can be a reasn why you would care so much for somebody and maybe like to be with that person... but when that feeling is confused for like then attachment comes in.... only when the attachment is removed through sudden change do we really see the nature of things....

its seldom that such ppl appear in your life.... but when they do, most of us view things differently... only after a change has happened, do we realise that the care we actually want to give, is like a bro to a sis...most importantly, we see that the kind of relationship that went on is one that can never develop into anything else...

The care in this way means that it would not change through time, whether or not she or you become attached to anybody, or how far apart they are from you or what they did to you... I personally have only met two people that somehow, no matter what happens you would still care for them.... the first started from a scenario called "I love you enough to let you go"... tough thing to do but after awhile, you realise that its much better the way we r now, where there is care for each other no matter what things changes, and no one gets hurt... the reason why I can say such a thing??? because she was the only person that is willing to risk being shouted at to come and talk to me when I was burning with anger.... the second being barely 2 months ago... she changed the way my life was, added more spice and life into it, and basically reminded me that there's many many many more things to look forward to in life, and I found a friend in her that was different from d other people i met... basically d 3 weeks i knew her, she left a very strong impact in my life... stronger than that, she brought out sponteinity back in my life, and basically assured me that there's always more to life than meets the eye... its a nice feeling to know that, and can easily.. easily be confused for like, etc etc... but the truth is that, its just care for the person that actually gave you so much, maybe without even realising it... and when you do care for such a person... it becomes more than that of a couple, etc... its a scenario where you will still care no matter she has a bf or you have a gf, no matter how she decided to hurt or ignore you later or whether or not you talk so often or see each other so often and whether or not it is returned and appreciated, because to you, the impact she left you is more than enough... this is what we call as care and love that is given from a bro to a sis..... and these feelings are often confused as infatuation and like, which happened to me... and I lost a friend... but well... the most important thing is that to you, she should never loose the friend that she actually left an impact with.... To maybe a few people that are sceptical, this is the reason why a boy an a girl can be just best friends and might/will be nothing more....

sorry.... no poem 2nite.... had 3 hours sleep for 2 nights... might brain not working... heart not beating..... good night ppl... take care....